I'm TIRED !

know i tell you with language english.

I'm tired ! i'm tired of my life ! i'm tired to live in home with this situation ! ok maybe the way my life is set up like this, but who can help me learn to accept all of this ? no one. i believe no one can teach me to accept all of this. i know my friends are only say "be patient bar." i don't need that words, i only need people who can help me to go through all of this. i believe some friends are talking behind me. why ??????????? please don't give me some torment again. maybe they doesn't know my situation now.

damaged ! my life is broken ! and I will not recount my problem here. but I still have a friends who always makes me laugh, eventhough they doesn't know my problem. one of my friends say "bar,it's their problem" ok it's easy to say that, but so difficult to do. how could i forget this problem if this problem is always in my house and it always disturb me . oh please god, give me time to rest,i'm really really tired. in schools or in other places i tried to smile eventhough my soul could not smile even a little. If i'm dreaming my life far more beautiful from my real life, I hope i will not wake up again forever.

"dont u remember how we used to be?we used to be FOREVER"

"finally i let you go" doesnt mean that i already MoveOn.. sometimess it means that i've accepted the truth"

"just because you see me love another one doesnt mean that i ever stop loving you, i'm just done waiting for you"

"i don't want to thank me, just remind you who always be there for you when ur down..."

"what kills me is i'm wasting my time, yet i still refuse to let go"

"you know what i could say ?" i dont wanna let you go from my life. i'll wait until god brings you yo me."

"one day, you will understand my love to you"

"i wish that you would relize that you always make my day"

"IMISSYOU. ASSHOLE"

"ur the reason i draw those stupid little hearts all over my blog"